I’ve written and rewritten this post several times. It’s not exactly coming naturally so I’ll be as candid as possible. I still have the desire to play EQOA. In fact, I tell Wreck (posts under Boomsticksaint) monthly that I plan on coming back soon. I even have laid out how I’ll network my shoddy PS2 from my room to the router with 30 feet of Ethernet and a 1997 HP Hub I bought a few years ago from a local IT company. When everything is laid out, my upstairs looks like a network admin came in and vomited on the floor. There are wires everywhere.
Yet even with this much effort being put in to just get internet to my Ps2, I get to the login screen in EQOA and, without fail, bail on restarting. I sometimes stare at the screen for 5 minutes wondering if it’s a good idea. As fun as the game is and as great of an escape it can be, I’ve gotten to the point in my life where I weigh the pros and cons in where I spend my time. If I restart EQOA and spend (optimistically) 10 hours a week playing, then that’s 10 hours a week I might be doing something else… or so I think. What I also have realized is that I’m already wasting those 10 hours a week watching TV or sitting around doing nothing in the first place.
It’s an odd dilemma given that what’s holding me back from returning isn’t the monthly fee, the lack of updates, or the networking challenges my house presents… it’s that maybe, just maybe at 25 years old I shouldn’t be sitting at a TV playing a video game. Strangely, it’s only after I’ve wasted hundreds of hours on these types of games do I realize how much an MMO and video games in general really cost. Thoughts?